Spring and Bill

It's beautiful outside. I should be excited, but those first few beautiful days of Spring, are sometimes so bittersweet for me.

I think of my friend Bill, who passed away three years ago. How he loved his garden. How he loved to plant. How he loved new beginings and beautiful things and how he died to young. And too suddenly. And too tragically.

Bill was a friend and also my boss at the flower shop. But I always felt a unique kindship with him. Like he was my older brother. Like he was family. Like he'd always be there. And it breaks my heart, over and over again, that he isn't here.

Bill, I will never forget you. Your funny style. Your love for eccentric things. And your dance moves.

I wish you were still here dancing.

This song always makes me think of you.

xoxoxo


"Who You'd Be Today"

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.